In this moment 2014-06-17

Eating / Just had yogurt and there’s a peach waiting as a mid-morning snack
Drinking / Just finished my morning coffee, but now it’s water until this eveing.
Practicing / Focus
Mastering / Well, I don’t know about mastering, but I have several sewing projects of knit materials waiting to be sewn up, so I am trying to master it…
Learning / To balance things at work
Trying / To make sure I get all the necessary things done before leaving next week
Playing / Inside my head
Finishing / A pair of gift socks — very soon!
Reading / Grantville Gazettes
Remembering / Mom. For some reason, I’ve been thinking of her here and there. It’s not a bad thing, actually
Wearing / A linen dress that needs to be copied, as it is beginning to show its age. But it is so comfortable
Cooking / Minimally, as the heat is getting up there
Working / On cataloging as much as possible before the material to be reviewed arrives
Traveling / To the Southwest very soon. I am eager to see the Grand Canyon
Wanting / Time to just be… the beach is less than a month awa

I am…Feb. 8, 2014

  1. I am very glad two new friends came over to join me for my craft Saturday. It did mean I missed some alone time, but I will survive. I’ll get some on Monday, since I am back to working at home.
  2. I am very ready for a shower.
  3. I am glad I did not exercise yesterday, as my ankle needed a break. Today it has been noticeably better. Now, should I go do the stationary bike?
  4. I am reading the Honor Harrington novels. It’s a re-read, so I’m skipping the boring and/or repetitive parts.
  5. I am winding a warp and then warping the loom for a class next weekend.
  6. I am looking forward to Italy. Only 11 days until I leave.
  7. I am slightly stressed by all the prep work that needs to be done at work.
  8. I am pleased by how the class is going, however.
  9. I am missing being able to watch the Olympics. It’s annoying that I have to have cable to watch it (or else have an antenna, which I have not yet installed).
  10. I am frustrated by the roofer’s extreme slowness.

Thinking about

Outside my window: cold and dark, but hopefully this weekend will live up to the weather report and warm up a bit.

I am thinking: of a jumble of things in my mind. It’s time to do a review of todos.

I am thankful: that last weekend went well.

In the kitchen: I am eating lots of raw vegetables, but I think it is time to make a bean and grain salad.

I am wearing: my nightclothes of sweats and long-sleeved tshirt.

I am listening to: Celtic-style rock music. I think it’s time to switch to the instrumental, soothing stuff.

I am going: to bed soon.

I am hoping: that the roofing contractor finally listens to what I am saying.

I am looking forward to: going to Italy next month!

I am wondering: how I can manage some time just to stay home.

I am learning: more about how to manipulate computer video files.

I am praying: for a friend of the family and his wife, who suffers from dementia.

On my Ipod: knitting podcasts and lots of Celtic-style music

I am reading: Bastion / Mercedes Lackey

I am pondering: what to focus on this weekend. I know one thing will be prepping the warp for the weaving class in two weeks.

A quote for today: “speaking the truth in love”

A verse for today: That’s where the quote comes from: Ephesian 4:15. It’s a good reminder to speak kindly and make charitable assumptions of speech.

One of my favorite things: reading, curled up in my lounge chair.

A peek into my day: Tense from work, because the computers was so slow. Usually that’s not the problem, but today it felt like it, because I needed it to work faster.

January 3, 2014 NOW

time: 8:39 am
location: Home

drinking: water. Just finished my coffee, now I’m on water.

eating: Nothing right now. Had yogurt with strawberry syrup for breakfast.
watching: Nothing.
feeling: Steeling myself to get through a work day. I’ve got a book to read.
loving: The bright sunlight reflecting off the snow.

thinking: I hope for a better year. 2013 wasn’t bad, but it wasn’t the best year ever either.

making: Socks, a sweater, a dress, etc. I’m always making things.
wanting: Another staycation. I’d like some uninterrupted time to read and make things.
needing: Quiet time at home. Exercise.
reading: The bitter kingdom by Rae Carson. As well as a variety of other books.
enjoying: Celtic music
avoiding: Recording the videos I need for work. I’ll get to it, but I don’t think they are my best work, and just recording the videos is really the basic thing.
wishing: Wishing I had time to focus on my most basic work task. I’ve been doing other stuff for so long that I miss it.
hoping: That this year my family will continue to hold together. It’s been a year since Mom died now, and we’ve done pretty well. But it will take ongoing effort.
missing: Mom. still.

Right now 12 November 2013

time: 10:10 am
location: at work
drinking: water
eating: just finished yogurt with strawberry
watching: Arrow, and Miss Fisher’s murder mysteries
feeling: unable to concentrate
loving: reading
thinking: about gifts for Thanxmas
making: a cowl, socks, shawl, dress, quilt
wanting: I don’t know what
needing: time with family
reading: Phryne Fisher, same as the television shows
enjoying: the beauty of the fall
avoiding: working on the online teaching I have to do
wishing: to not feel rushed
hoping: it’s a good holiday
missing: Mom

Roundup 2013 October

What special or unusual event occurred?
Well, the government shut down. Being a Federal employee, I ended up with 16 days of staycation. It was a highly interesting experience. I enjoyed the home time, though at first I found it confusing.
What were my accomplishments this month?
I quilted a baby quilt to give later in the month. I also employed the staycation time somewhat usefully, while packing in plenty of rest time.
What were my disappointments this month?
I was distinctly delayed in getting some work done. This threw me off when I finally got back to work. It was difficult to get back in work mode for pretty much all of October, between furlough, vacation time, and consequent slowness to getting back into thinking in work mode.
What books/music/shows did I enjoy this month?
  • J.D. Robb kick
    • Treachery in death
    • Salvation in death
    • Survivor in death
    • Indulgence in death
    • Celebrity in death
    • Origin in death
    • Memory in death
    • Born in death
    • Innocent in death
    • Promises in death
  • by Nalini Singh
    • Wild invitation
    • Angel’s blood
    • Archangel’s kiss
    • Archangel’s blade
    • Archangel’s legion
    • Tangle of need
  • Redoubt by Mercedes Lackey
  • Bastion by Mercedes Lackey
  • Five little pigs by Agatha Christie (in Sigil)
  • The last boyfriend by Nora Roberts
  • The perfect hope by Nora Roberts
  • The mentalist
  • Skyfall
  • The Avengers
  • Murder at the vicarage
  • Sleeping murder
  • Nemesis
  • The A-team
  • Campion, season 2
  • Mansfield Park, two different versions
What crafts did I work on this month (not what I finished, but what did I work on)?
  • Baby quilt — started and finished in less than a month
  • Summerweight sweater — we’re getting close
  • Socks #29
  • Couture dress
  • Baby kimono #7 and #8
What fun things did I do with my family, friends, or by myself?
I was actually able to attend some daytime Bible studies with friends that ordinarily would never be possible, due to the shut down.
I also visited my brother and his family.
What gifts did I give and/or receive?
I received the gift of time.
What special or unusual purchases did I make?
Well, I tried to get maintenance done on the house, but delays kept happening.
What illnesses or health concerns did I have?
Allergies, allergies, allergies.
Anything else noteworthy to include?
Well, the HVAC man was supposed to come and follow up on my heater maintenance, and he called to say he could not come because of the highly unexpected death of his wife. Having experienced that myself last year, I had nothing to offer but sympathy and patience.
On the other hand, he pointed out a problem that I need to get fixed — a weird leak of some sort around the hot water heater pipe in my roof. Good thing I now know about it.
The roof guy is taking forever a while to respond. But I am also raising things that are getting added by the homeowner’s association and the HVAC guy, so I must possess my soul in patience.
What rest did I achieve this month?
I actually was pretty well rested, all things considered. But it’s a constant effort to do and redo.

Moving slow

It started, I think, with the Slow Food movement. It then moved on to lots of others things in the craft world. I’m not sure where else it is found specifically, but I generally find that the concept is around just in the general culture in the US right now.

Occasionally, I find it annoying, because I think some people misunderstand the point. On some of the quilt podcasts I enjoy, for example, Pam of Hip to be a Square keeps joking that she doesn’t really get into it, because she produces quilts and other projects regularly, at a fairly fast pace. Now, to me – and I have no idea if the general understanding of the slow movement is in agreement with this or its my own idea – but the actual speed of production has nothing to do with whether or not you are participating in the Slow movement. Because actual production speed is not the point, whether fast or slow. The difference is in the attitude.

No matter what speed you are producing at, I want to know:

  1. are you enjoying yourself?
  2. do you feel pressured to produce without much creativity?
  3. are you doing this because you want to or because you are “required” to?
  4. do you have sufficient time – I don’t care how MUCH time – to make the things you want to make and still immerse yourself in the process? To be creative?
  5. do you like the end product?

There are other questions you could ask and other ways you could phrase these. They are just a sampling of the questions that go along with it. But the fundamental point is the same: your attitude towards what you produce is what makes it a reflection of the slow movement or not. You and I could both be quilting for the same amount of time, you could make five quilts while I just made one, but if we both enjoyed the process thoroughly, then we did it plenty slow.

Ten books I want to read

Sometimes Carole’s Ten on a Tuesday are easy, sometimes they are hard. This one is actually right in the middle, because really, only ten books I want to read? I read way too much. But we’ll give it a try.

  1. Beowulf by Seamus Haney – although actually I want to listen to it, not read it on paper
  2. On Walden Pond by Henry David Thoreau. I wonder if listening to it would work better?
  3. Archangel’s legion by Nalini Singh – well, whatever comes out next, I guess.
  4. Thankless in death by J.D. Robb – or whatever else is most recent. I really like this series, even if the individual books don’t live up to my expectations.
  5. 1636: the Devil’s opera by Eric Flint and David Carrico – whatever else is most recent in this series
  6. The long ships by Frans Gunnar Bengtsson. I read a fascinating review that struck me as equal parts funny and interesting.
  7. Cobbled Court quilt books by Marie Bostwick, both the main series and the related books. Oddly enough, I’ve only read one, but I liked it. I just haven’t gotten around to them.
  8. Eat, pray, love – curiosity mostly
  9. Patricia Briggs books – whatever is next to come out. I have read all of hers (I think, because not sure about the oldest stuff), currently buy them as they come out, and re-read them regularly. (Night broken in March 2014)
  10. Ilona Andrews books – once again whatever is next to come out. I like the Kate Daniels series best, but have read almost everything else she(and he) have written.

Roundup 2013 September

What special or unusual event occurred?
I signed a contract to get my roof worked on. It was a deal to to get them in the neighborhood and would save me much money, so I said yes.
What were my accomplishments this month?
Translations of work material into Spanish. I did two modules, which were quite large. Those who are not colleagues here at my office were quite prompt, but my colleagues right next to me? Much slower. Being “in charge” of this process may turn out to be a little annoying because of that.
Finally made the calls so I can get some house stuff done. Electrician coming to enable my front yard light to finally work.
What were my disappointments this month?
Just…missing Mom a bit more. This month would have been their 52 anniversary. Dad felt it a bit.
What books/music/shows did I enjoy this month?
  • Nero Wolfe DVD
  • A game of chance / Linda Howard
  • The Quilt Show
  • The Mentalist
  • Blaze of memory, in a distracted kind of way
  • Heart of obsidian
  • Sins and needles / Monica Ferris
  • Brides quartet / Nora Roberts
  • Secrets of a summer night / Lisa Kleypas
  • Tried Consider the fork, but I just couldn’t get into it.
  • Delusion in death
  • Bronze gods / A.A. Aguirre — new author and I definitely liked him/her.
  • The vanishing man / R. Austin Freeman
  • Thankless in death / J.D. Robb
  • Deception cove / Jayne Ann Krentz
  • Five little pigs / Agatha Christie
  • Fair game / Patricia Briggs
What crafts did I work on this month (not what I finished, but what did I work on)?
  • Summerweight sweater — I’m SO close.
  • Socks #28
  • Spinning for fiber study: Brown Manx Loaghton
  • Spinning Romney
  • Oak trail hat (#2)
  • Leftovers hat with the same yarn as the Oak trail. This one will be for sale.
  • Big quilt got basted at my sister’s, where I had room to spread out.
What fun things did I do with my family, friends, or by myself?
Lunch with a friend (sort of) that I hadn’t seen in a while. She attends another congregation, mostly, so it is not easy to see her. But oddly, I don’t necessarily feel a strong sense of connection to her. She is a sister in Christ, but I’m uncertain that calling her a friend meets my definition.
I visited my sister later in the month. We had a good time together.
I indulged in a lovely meal at Macaroni Grill for my birthday, including the mozzarella sticks.
What gifts did I give and/or receive?
Dad remembered to send me something for my birthday!
My sister took me out to lunch.
And for my birthday, I was well-remembered by those I love. I still missed Mom, though.
What special or unusual purchases did I make?
A case to carry books back and forth from work. It is something I have been needing, and I really like this one, as it is hard-sided and looks more durable than the previous ones. I sincerely hope I will be able to use it for a long time.
Finally got back to the place where I buy bras. I bought a good one, and ended up trying out sports bras there as well. I think I will like this one, thought it had to be ordered.
What illnesses or health concerns did I have?
Allergies, endless allergies.
Anything else noteworthy to include?
I watched the coming government shut down with a mixture of apprehension and anticipation. As a government worker, it would most definitely affect me.
What rest did I achieve this month?
Pretty good, although it is always interesting to notice that I will sleep well over  a weekend or vacation, and then the night before I go back to work? I sleep badly, which means I return to work as tired as I left it, more or less. I’m really not sure why.

INTJ, or am I?

The Mastermind

I found out some time ago that my Myers-Briggs personality type is called the Mastermind. It was an interesting read, especially since I could definitely see some likenesses. And in some ways I found certain elements of that description to be freeing, in the sense that I could see those elements to be justified, in a sense. It was part of the balance of my personality to be an introvert, for an example, and it helped me to understand that I really do need to have time alone in order to balance my personality. Understanding that about myself helps me to make good choices for what I actually do need, both in choosing to be alone and in choosing not to be alone.

However, and this is where I am a bit of a rebel about personality tests — allowing oneself to be defined by your “personality type” is a form of self-limitation. Yes, there are likenesses in that description, but there are also warnings. I can look at that description and recognize several weaknesses in my character, and so work to avoid and/or strengthen them. I don’t get to just accept them. That’s a cop out.  I take responsibility for my actions; I don’t accept the excuse of saying, “oh, that’s just the way I am.” Maybe you do have a tendency toward such and such a character trait, but if it is a bad character trait, you are the one who decides to act upon it. I recognize in myself a tendency toward arrogance, and when I read the mastermind description it is there. But I take precautions against my own arrogance, with specific actions included in that to balance out the arrogance that is part of my nature. I do NOT allow it to have full play without any limitations.

In the same way, I find generational descriptions to be amusing and annoying at the same time. Yes, I am like my generation in many ways, but there are plenty of ways in which I am distinctly different. Aggregated data is limited when it comes to defining the person. Don’t assume that you are always a reflection of the aggregate. You are you, and should not be constrained by the box of the group.

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